♥ Thursday, March 5, 2009
There are a quite a few things which are really worrying me. A few of them are written down below:
When I came home just now, our front door was opened widely, I was the first one to get home… took a quick look through our house but nothing seems to be missing. But I’m not sure though… why would it be open?!
The last few days I’ve been totally upsetting my body. It al started with the stupid holiday last week. All week I’ve been going to bed after 2 AM, I would get up at about 11 AM. But apparently my body got used to that in only one week, so Sunday I wasn’t able to fall asleep before 1 AM. Well, of course I couldn’t sleep until 11 AM, I had to get up at 7 AM… Worst had to come yet. I wasn’t told that we had an economics test on Tuesday, I found out on Monday. But I had many other things to do and I didn’t want to fail my test. Went to sleep at 3 AM because I couldn’t concentrate on studying. Got up at half past 6. I was totally tired and fell asleep constantly when evening came. Wednesday I had another test, but I was too tired to study, kept on trying though. Gave up at the end. Wanted to go to sleep at 11 PM. Appeared to be a fire in a house (which appeared to be a drugs lab) in my street, lots of noise coming from outside, couldn’t sleep till about half past 12. I wanted to get up at 5 AM to study for my test, but I fell asleep after making my alarm clock stop its annoying beeping. At 7 AM my mom came to wake me;
“get up”
“No, I will not have breakfast today so I can sleep for another 30 minutes”
So yeah, I had school until 16.15 so call it starving myself. And yesterday I fell asleep again and I had to make a report for art, but I was way too tired. Couldn’t sleep when I wanted to go to sleep at half past 9…
Instead of sleeping I actually was looking at my crappy cell phone –which I don’t want to use because I’m ashamed of it-. I was looking at its calendar, and since it’s a previous phone of my mom (now laugh at me, I allow you to) all the birthdays are in, planned for the next 100 years or so. I was pushing on the down button repeatedly (I think I have RSI right now because of that..) and it made me really depressed! I saw the years flying by. In 2020 I’ll turn 27 years old.. my dad will turn 52, my mom 51, my brother 22 and my grandparents will get really close to death. I was wondering how my life would look like in 2020, but thinking of it only made me more depressed, I think I will not have any (positive) future at all. Probably I’m going to be a hobo, stalking attractive boys all day, in Japan.
Thinking of my future is worrisome, just like thinking of the present. Shuyesh came by again. But this time just while a lot of other people were around, outside. I heard him shouting “Hey!” and when I turned around I saw him running towards me.
When he was close enough I asked him a question, “Why are you here with all these people around?”
He smiled, “I can be a normal friend to you now!”
“Can you give further information on that?”
“Well, normally humans aren’t able to see people from our planet, but I saved up some money to buy a ring which enables me to be seen by humans…”
I raised one of my eyebrows, the other stayed on its normal position, “But why was I able to see you all the time? And why does a RING have that ability?”
Shuyesh smiled again, “Sorry, it’s too complicated to explain. But in short it means that before humans wouldn’t be able to hear my voice as well, so it would seem like you did be talking to yourself. Now we can just talk normally. I made up a lie as well which means I can stay here as long as I want, the only problem is that I cant return the next 3 weeks…”
I kept quiet.
“The next 3 weeks we can make up a plan to save your Qeay, I just don’t know where to stay…”
I nodded, saving Qeay is what’s most important at the moment. “Ehm… well I don’t think my parents allow me to let a boy stay over for 3 weeks… but I guess you don’t have any of our money to pay for a hotel right?”
Shuyesh shook his head, “Nope, I don’t have any of your money at all. But I could take off the ring while staying at your house! Nobody would notice…”
I nodded, “During daytime I have to go to school though, cant keep you company all day long. Please don’t let anyone notice you’re staying at my house…”
Shuyesh nodded, “I know, I’ll search for a temporary job and earn some money so that I wont bother your family. I need to eat as well, you know.”
Yeah, the conversation continued for a long time and I don’t see any reason why I should tell you everything, but yeah. Shuyesh is staying at my house now. Its fun, but scary at the same time though. What if someone finds out?
Haha, I suddenly realized this is a really long post. Oops? Oh! I am thinking of not posting SP parts of my life anymore since nobody seems the slightest bit interested in it. =.=
Probably I’ll stop liking blogging again if I don’t write SP parts, so probably I’m going to stop blogging anyway.
RANDOM WORD OF THE DAY POST! (& It’s Wikipedia explanation)
MOWRAH!
Mowrah butter, from the seeds of the Madhuca latifolia and Madhuca longifolia, both native to India. Crude Mowrah butter is used as a fat for spinning wool, for making candles and soap. The refined fat is used as an edible fat and vegetable ghee in India
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When I came home just now, our front door was opened widely, I was the first one to get home… took a quick look through our house but nothing seems to be missing. But I’m not sure though… why would it be open?!
The last few days I’ve been totally upsetting my body. It al started with the stupid holiday last week. All week I’ve been going to bed after 2 AM, I would get up at about 11 AM. But apparently my body got used to that in only one week, so Sunday I wasn’t able to fall asleep before 1 AM. Well, of course I couldn’t sleep until 11 AM, I had to get up at 7 AM… Worst had to come yet. I wasn’t told that we had an economics test on Tuesday, I found out on Monday. But I had many other things to do and I didn’t want to fail my test. Went to sleep at 3 AM because I couldn’t concentrate on studying. Got up at half past 6. I was totally tired and fell asleep constantly when evening came. Wednesday I had another test, but I was too tired to study, kept on trying though. Gave up at the end. Wanted to go to sleep at 11 PM. Appeared to be a fire in a house (which appeared to be a drugs lab) in my street, lots of noise coming from outside, couldn’t sleep till about half past 12. I wanted to get up at 5 AM to study for my test, but I fell asleep after making my alarm clock stop its annoying beeping. At 7 AM my mom came to wake me;
“get up”
“No, I will not have breakfast today so I can sleep for another 30 minutes”
So yeah, I had school until 16.15 so call it starving myself. And yesterday I fell asleep again and I had to make a report for art, but I was way too tired. Couldn’t sleep when I wanted to go to sleep at half past 9…
Instead of sleeping I actually was looking at my crappy cell phone –which I don’t want to use because I’m ashamed of it-. I was looking at its calendar, and since it’s a previous phone of my mom (now laugh at me, I allow you to) all the birthdays are in, planned for the next 100 years or so. I was pushing on the down button repeatedly (I think I have RSI right now because of that..) and it made me really depressed! I saw the years flying by. In 2020 I’ll turn 27 years old.. my dad will turn 52, my mom 51, my brother 22 and my grandparents will get really close to death. I was wondering how my life would look like in 2020, but thinking of it only made me more depressed, I think I will not have any (positive) future at all. Probably I’m going to be a hobo, stalking attractive boys all day, in Japan.
Thinking of my future is worrisome, just like thinking of the present. Shuyesh came by again. But this time just while a lot of other people were around, outside. I heard him shouting “Hey!” and when I turned around I saw him running towards me.
When he was close enough I asked him a question, “Why are you here with all these people around?”
He smiled, “I can be a normal friend to you now!”
“Can you give further information on that?”
“Well, normally humans aren’t able to see people from our planet, but I saved up some money to buy a ring which enables me to be seen by humans…”
I raised one of my eyebrows, the other stayed on its normal position, “But why was I able to see you all the time? And why does a RING have that ability?”
Shuyesh smiled again, “Sorry, it’s too complicated to explain. But in short it means that before humans wouldn’t be able to hear my voice as well, so it would seem like you did be talking to yourself. Now we can just talk normally. I made up a lie as well which means I can stay here as long as I want, the only problem is that I cant return the next 3 weeks…”
I kept quiet.
“The next 3 weeks we can make up a plan to save your Qeay, I just don’t know where to stay…”
I nodded, saving Qeay is what’s most important at the moment. “Ehm… well I don’t think my parents allow me to let a boy stay over for 3 weeks… but I guess you don’t have any of our money to pay for a hotel right?”
Shuyesh shook his head, “Nope, I don’t have any of your money at all. But I could take off the ring while staying at your house! Nobody would notice…”
I nodded, “During daytime I have to go to school though, cant keep you company all day long. Please don’t let anyone notice you’re staying at my house…”
Shuyesh nodded, “I know, I’ll search for a temporary job and earn some money so that I wont bother your family. I need to eat as well, you know.”
Yeah, the conversation continued for a long time and I don’t see any reason why I should tell you everything, but yeah. Shuyesh is staying at my house now. Its fun, but scary at the same time though. What if someone finds out?
Haha, I suddenly realized this is a really long post. Oops? Oh! I am thinking of not posting SP parts of my life anymore since nobody seems the slightest bit interested in it. =.=
Probably I’ll stop liking blogging again if I don’t write SP parts, so probably I’m going to stop blogging anyway.
RANDOM WORD OF THE MOWRAH!
Mowrah butter, from the seeds of the Madhuca latifolia and Madhuca longifolia, both native to India. Crude Mowrah butter is used as a fat for spinning wool, for making candles and soap. The refined fat is used as an edible fat and vegetable ghee in India
« It's a cupcake candle. Hurray for mowrah!
Cheer me up and follow me on twitter, I demand you!
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p.s. I resigned from my previous job at the bakery, I was scared to death right before I told my boss. Felt really strange after leaving again...
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